Prom: Part 1

It has been crazy these past few days. I’ve been out a lot. Yeah, I know. Shocking.

I’ve been scouting around the city, looking for a trusted salon and a dress shop. It’s not for me, if you’re wondering, it’s for my sister’s Prom. Luckily, we found her perfect dress—they already had her size measured and we need to go back again after 2 weeks. And I’ve already booked her salon appointment. So everything’s settled, as for now.

This is my sister’s first Prom experience and I want everything to be perfect—from head down to her feet. I never had a perfect Prom experience that’s why I’m doing all these for her.

I only had one Prom experience. Why only one? You’ll find that out later...

I remember, I wore a Chinese dress and I had my hair permed. I didn’t even wear a pair of high heels because I hated it, so I opted for flats. I had a geisha inspired make-up. Like, literally in-your-face-white-cakey-foundation make up . Also, no one, AS IN NOT ONE, asked me to dance. I was not even part of the cotillion. I was basically a miserable Wall Flower. I was just there staring at them while they’re dancing, having fun and making happy memories. I felt that night, like I was a part of a slow-motion movie. I wanted to go home so bad, but time seemed to move so slow. It was a dreadful night and I can’t believe I’m reliving it again. *facepalm* So yeah, that sums up my Prom experience. What a fond memory, right? Not.

See? Now you know why I wanted everything to be perfect for my sister. And in case, no one would ask her to dance, at least I know she have her circle of friends to dance with. They’re a fun group of friends anyways, so for sure they’re going to make it a fun experience, not only just for them, but for everyone in that room. And I’ll be taking pictures when that time comes! 

Oh, I almost forgot about the “you’ll find out later” thing. The reason why I only had one Prom experience is because they changed the time schedule for our last Prom. It was, if I’m not mistaken, 1 in the afternoon. I know, right? But there’s a bigger reason for that (I’m not involved with it, okay), and I’m not going to blog that one out. Just because.

Bye, for now! :)

Movie: Fruitvale Station

I’m still in utterly shocked. I just finished watching ‘Fruitvale Station’. It’s kind of hard to write right know, but I need to do it while I’m still emotionally attached to the movie.

This movie is a story about a guy named Oscar Grant. The movie follows Oscar’s last final day before he was wrongfully killed by a police officer in Fruitvale Station.

I already knew what’s going to happen. I already knew that he’s going to die. But what I didn’t know was the story behind it. And in this movie, in Oscar’s last final day, the director and writers showed a sheer story.

I really don’t want to spoil the movie so instead, I’m just going to tell you something about the actors’ performance.

Michael B. Jordan, he plays the main character. His acting was so raw, so real, that I almost felt like I was also there, standing in front of him, watching the whole thing. That’s how good his acting was, and that’s how effective he was. His character carries you through out the film and it was almost as if I was watching a 3D movie, but in more compelling way.

Octavia Spencer, she plays Oscar Grant’s mother.  I’ve seen her acting in the movie “The Help” before , and she was really, really good in that film. But, she was more impressive in this one. You know a good actor if she could deliver a character without trying too hard. And she wasn't trying in this film. I love the way her eyes stares, it’s like a vortex, you get sucked right into it. It’s crazy how she does it. One of my favorite parts of the film, and I think the most emotional and heartbreaking part, was when Octavia’s character saw his son’s body, lying on a cold-hard table, lifeless. I think that moment was the most powerful scene. Believe me when I say, I was crying the same time Octavia’s character was crying, it’s as if we’re doing a duet song. But in a wail, way.

Melonie Diaz, she plays as Oscar’s girlfriend and the mother to their 7-year old daughter. I think what she did in this film deserves a recognition. And I’m talking about an Oscar nomination for a supporting role. Her acting was so sincere and moving that it carried me, as a movie watcher, to her situation and pain.

And let’s not forget little Miss Ariana Neal, she plays as Oscar's daughter. She doesn’t really had a lot of frame shots, but what she did in the latter part of the film got me. She didn’t even had to say a single word. It was her eyes that’s acting.

This movie pretty much drained all my emotions, and I’m about to watch another drama movie. I’m doomed.

Make sure you’re emotionally prepared before watching this film, okay?

Bye, for now!

New Resolutions!

So, I’ve been contemplating on the things that I wanted to do/achieve for this year. Yes, you’re right. It’s my freaking New Year’s Resolution! Haha

I know, I know, we all have them. From saving up money to “I’m going quit smoking”, and losing weight to changing your behaviour, we all have our own lists. This year, I decided to make a list that involved OTHER things. I wanted to share it with you guys. Hopefully, this can inspire you to make your own new year’s resolution lists.

Some resolutions needs a little bit of explanation while others, well, they’re pretty much speaks for themselves. J

1.)  A Job –This year, my goal is to find a job. I had a really traumatic experience last year. I didn't get into the job I applied for. You know that feeling when someone told you, “I’m sorry, you could try again next time”, well, that exact moment happened to me. And in that moment, I felt like my knees took off and went straight to heaven--leaving me behind. It was depressing. But then again, life goes on. This year, I’m more determined to get a job. *wink*

2.)  Re-connect with some of my good friends – I don’t really have a lot of friends, well, I do know a lot of people—but only first name basis. When it comes to my circle of friends, I only have a few. Unfortunately though, some of my good friends right now, are all scattered around (here and abroad), but we do catch up once in awhile, with the use of facebook and skype.

I don’t have the money to fly abroad just to see my friends in person. But, I still have some friends left here. So I’m going to start visiting them, one by one. Okay, don’t get too excited. It’s not like I’m going to do this spontaneously. It needs some time and money. I’m just being honest here. Remember, I’m un-employed! (LOL) I wanted to start here (Dagupan), though. I studied in Dagupan City National High School for a year, and I did made some friends. Not really a lot, but you know what they say, “ quality > quantity”.(LOLJK) Anyways, I’m going to start planning. Maybe get their cellphone numbers on facebook, and we’ll see it from there. Wow. This is actually making me nervous.

3.)  Go out more –For those of you who doesn’t know me, personally. Well, I’m quite a homebody. It’s funny though because I was once, labelled a “party girl” before, because a friend of friend of a friend told this certain someone that I was this girl who loves going to the club. Which was not entirely true. There’s a reason behind all that and I don’t why they made it such a BIG issue. Don’t get me wrong though, remember, I was once a “party girl” (insert evil laugh here). I have had experienced some good fun, too. A girl also needs her booze fix, right? (LOL) But, I only do that occasionally like: after a gruelling exam, or when a friend invited me to this club (I don’t get a lot of invites, fyi), or when someone has a birthday and my presence is in dire need (LOL. Not really.) I wouldn’t say NO to that, wouldn’t you? I mean. It’s free booze, come on!

This year, I wanted to be more proactive. I wanted to go out, I’ve always wanted to read a book under a tree, or read a book while lying on a grass (minus the ants haha), meet new people, just small things that involves me and my idle feet. Fresh air, here I come!

4.)  Read more books this year! – Being a self-confessed bookworm I try to read as many interesting books in a year. I actually had a quota last year, but unfortunately, I failed.  The bookworm in me was sad. But this year, I will try to put a lot of effort and  time, save some of my allowance every month to buy a new, or maybe some second hand books from BookSale. I’m not really picky when it comes to book (it could be old, new, with or without cover), as long as it’s a good book. This saving-my-allowance thing will probably going to starve me to death, but... oh well, books are as good as food, anyway. Books give us good advice, books give us new ideas, and they let us exercise our imaginations. I love getting lost in a book. I love being drowned with so much feelings and emotions. Especially, when it’s my time of the month. (LOL) A good romantic novel plus me PMS-ing? It’s like adding fuel to the fire. Haha  So this year, I am promising myself a year filled with books.

5.)  Stay fit and eat more healthy food – Who am I kidding?

6.)  Make amends to the people I did wrong – I’m not really the type of person who’d say sorry just for the hell of it. And I’m not the type of person who’d say sorry, even if I know that I did nothing wrong, especially when I’m just defending myself for something that I didn’t do. I take pride of my ego. And I’m not ashamed to say that. But I know, along the way, I did hurt one or few people (which I’m not naming). And a sincere (personal) apology is the only way to make everything right. I’m still not going to say sorry to those who did me wrong, though. Nope. Not going to happen. I wish them a swell 2014, though. Because I'm a good person like that. (LOL)

7.)  And lastly, I’ll try to be more patient and more understanding, especially towards my sister. I feel sorry for being too hard on her last year and even last, last year. (LOL) But it’s just that I wanted only the best for her. I wanted her to learn from my mistakes, but she’s so hard-headed, she wouldn’t listen. I mean, I pretty much raised her and all. Can I, at least, have some respect I deserve? Scientifically, I’m blaming hormones. She’s at the peak of her puberty stage, angst everywhere. But, come on, sister, give your ate a break. Can you at least, take it down a notch? Hmmkay? Let’s talk later.

This is blog post is becoming a declaration of my family problems. I need to stop now. Haha

So, that’s it. It’s a short list, but I wanted it that way. Hope this list helped you guys with some of your resolutions. Have a wonderful year ahead, you guys! Have a blessed 2014!

Bye, for now! J

TV: My Mad Fat Diary

Sometimes, you find a show so funny, so poignant, so relatable, so nostalgic, and so good that you can’t help but tell everyone to jump on the bandwagon.

I was searching for a new TV series to watch and I found this British series, My Mad Fat Diary on tumblr. I watched the trailer on youtube first, and immediately I was hooked. Thank God, the series had already ended its first season so I was able to watch the whole series continuously.

The story was based on a real life diary about a teenage girl, with a mental health issues, named Rae Earl in 1996. The story also follows the lives of Rae’s friends (from the outside world), her mum, her friends from the psychiatric hospital, and mostly about the 90’s era.

I have cried a hundred of times on every episodes. And laughed with every thing that comes out from Rae’s state of mind, especially when she talks about boys.

hiya, Finn! ;)

This series showed so much realness. It wasn't too “dreamy”, It was real. It was so beautiful, yet, you get a little dose of pain along the way. This show made me realize that not all guys are shallow. You have to watch the series to know what I’m talking about. *wink*

This series holds a special place in my heart, right there beside Grey’s Anatomy and The Parenthood. I suggest you watch this series now because season two is just around the corner! :)

Bye, for now!

Happy 2014!

Hello, Happy New Year! What better way to start the new year than starting up a new blog. (LOL)

I seriously don’t know why I’m doing this again. I suck at this (blogging). But for some reason, every time the year ends, I always had this itch to blog, or start up a new blog. And then, eventually, forget about it the next day. But it’s different this year. I’m more determined to push this one through.

So anyways, again I’m back! I’ll try to post a lot more decent and interesting blog posts next time.

My tea’s getting colder. Bye for now! :)